Truth

i just realised that i havent really told you some stuffs about boarding school really

1. its really heavy to leave kl.. it feels heavy and sometimes i feel like crying.. even now. i noe, its sad.
2. it feels really empty once im there. at first its optimistic for me, but that'll last one or two days
3. there's less social life there and more study life. i hate that part really. sometimes i just feel like calling bangi people. but then i'd have to pay for my credits. yes, it matters because its my own money not my mom's
4. it just feels.. empty.. maybe it wouldnt be if you guys were here. :)

only 3-quarters of a year left !! :DDD

That Feeling Again

i've got that feeling again, the same feeling i've had for the past year

everytime im goin back to taiping, the same feeling keeps coming back

its not happiness or even sadness

its the feeling as if i forgot something.. or missing something.

hermm

its the feeling of ' i dont wanna go' and 'lets end this quick' at the same time.

its like im running out of time. its like im leaving the things i love.. again

its been a year and im still not used to it.

Almost done..

The green ones are done, the blue ones are 3-quarter done. red ones are untouched :D

• Chemistry : 11 SPM and trial spm question sets
• Biology : 4 essay questions and another 3
• Physics : 2 chapters of exercises
• Sejarah : a handout
• Agama : exam corrections (must copy exactly like in the paper including front page), a subtopic about ajaran sesat
• BM : Julia Folio
• English : holiday journal
• Mod Math : a handout
• Addmath : 2 pages full of compacted questions.. ugghh

i noe, i totally take math and english for granted. bajet boleh siap skejap je. heheh.. tak sentuh lg.

chaiyo! i'll finish chem tonite, and the rest tomorrow. 

ADDITIONAL STUFFS

• EMC documentary : The Earth
  
• Event planning : International Book Fair KL
  
• Bahas : Persatuan Bangsa-bangsa Bersatu, masih relevan ? (inter-class compettition)
  
• UIA debate : research on politics and economy
  
• EMC : proposals for upcoming activity, schedule for hadeeth recitation
  

Maturity

If you DONT live under a rock then you must've noticed

that most americans look way more matured than they should

miley cyrus is 17 and she luks as old as lindsay lohan

i mean, some of my friends are 17 and they look like some 6 year old

no offense though.. 

i cant say the same for me though coz i've had a few ppl coming up to me and ask,

"hey, which university are you studying in ?"

or 

"where do you work at ?"

the last thing i would wanna hear is

"how many kids you got ?"

HAHA

ok, back to the topic, it really comes down to maturity

maturity comes from experience, and i can tell you that americans do have a lot of those along the way.

i mean lets compare, they start learning history in their elementary school, they have really PE which really teaches about the science not just the practical stuffs, they hang out with girls earlier than we started doing it. haha. they're exposed to more alcohol, sex, drugs and those kind of crap

they basically have a few years ahead in terms of exposure.

so it's proven, 'maturity does come from experience, not age' quoted from ashwintan nagayandran ;)

thankful ?

i dont noe why, but when mom suddenly gave me this new watch, i was like.. owh ok..

not that im not thankful its just that.. i already have a watch, why buy another one ?

i need an ipod. tu je. haha

alhamdulillah anyways

Safe

u noe wut

i use to think that i was always in the safe zone

i use to look at statistics to guarantee my success

i use to think that if im amongst the top 200 ppl at my school, i'll easily get straight A's

i use to think that if im amongst the debators, i'll easily get straight A1s

i use to think that ppl in kementerian schools can get straight A1s, of course i can

that was then

ur nowhere near the safe zone

and that goes to everyone.

its all hard work and perspiration

chellos, homework's calling.

FUCKFUCKFUCK !!

Sorry for all the cussing but,

yusri officially had his first SPM panic attack moments ago.

spm is in 8 months

the clock is ticking

i have 74 days to finish studying form 4 subjects because by end of may, all of hell will start breaking loose, tests, and those shit starts in june and as mom says, u need a target as in when to finish studying

its an impossible target i hope can be made possible.

time will be wasted mostly on UIA debate and inter-mrsm debate

which usually equals to a week each

so 74 - 14 = 60 days

60 minus the rest of the school hols = 55 days

so officially, i have 55 days to study. great.

9 days for each subject.. statistically that is.

but watever the numbers are, i need to finish studying or my panic attack will grow worst in may

and i dont even get the questions in my homework list !!!!!!!!!

arrr

may Allah have mercy on me, save me God.

insyaAllah lets study.

chapter 1 out of 4 for 2009

MRSM Taiping

• 45 straight A1's
• 150+ straight A's
• 100% passed
• 2nd best for all mrsm's

after hearing from you guys who claim to have been motivated and such, i dont think i need motivation anymore. not at all. in fact i dont think my fellow schoolmates need any. the statistics shows it all. being the number 1 batch for 2nd semester put high expectations on teachers, the statistics has really changed the perceptions of teachers on us.

face it, the 07/08 scored 2nd and they only got 1 4-flatter for 2nd and 3rd sem. guess what ?  we had 14 ! not to brag but the expectations for this year's spm is really high, and everyone's really pressured. i mean super pressured. with homeworks that could easily make any mind go insane, i dont think we need any more motivation to study. HAHA

but yeah, its like.. bpk benci. haha

i dont hate homeworks, i just hate teachers that think we live breathe and sleep homework. 

its called praying ok ? i need time for that. and for eating, showering, pc-ing

aaa lenkali takyah balek rumah jela.. haih

bt what to do, its spm year and in mrsmtpg its hell year. 

insyaAllah i have debate coming up this april and another comp this may.. bahas comp is next week and insyaAllah i'll be joining the class' team.

last week has really showed me the true meaning of WORKing with people as i was stuck to handle the tickets again.

this time its a little more complicated.

ugh pening.

taknak cite. lg sakit kepala

i almost cried trying to solve some of those probs.

each knock on my class door was filled with tension and  stress. 

its like every 10 minutes people come to my class and bring new problems.

i hate KL people for buying tickets via the college a.k.a me.

at one point my head was about to burst thinking about debate and the tickets at the same time.

but i did learn one thing really, how to negotiate with older ppl u dont noe

once i even shouted at the guy for not listening. 

well its not really a proud thing but its an accomplishment for me. haha

hmm.. what else about my 3 weeks journey in taiping ?

oh yeah, i feel like somehow i have sinned too much or something

at one time, my laptop broke (as in BROKEN !), my camera has to be formatted, my phone has insufficient battery, its charger is locked in k-po's room, one of the parts for my solar charger got broken and my 2nd phone's battery cant be used anymore. oh and my mp3 could not be started.

it all happened in  about a week. haha

i dont noe, bt its a 50/50 thing here, i've broken some of my stuffs so that maybe perhaps my mom would buy me a new set of electronic items. muwahaha !

amin

haha

besides that its a normal life in taiping. haha